January 2010
“borderlining schizo and guaranteed to cause a fuss, i was never loyal,
except...”
“well take me, take me back to your bed, i love you so much that it hurts my...”
“She fakes a smile and presses her hips into his.”
is it about to get a little more complicated?
why is my life so fucking complicated?
“this is the price you pay for loss of control,
this is the break in the bend,...”
“well i love you so much, but do me a favour baby don’t reply, because i...”
1 tag
second phone post.
I love brand new they were fucking amazing! I had such a great night :D but I’m bare too tired to write about it now. I’m trying to sleep but sophie has stolen the duvet and pillows >:[ so I’m cold and tired and yeah, I’m gunna go now, what a load of shit! Haha. I also just did something that I havn’t done in ages and it made me happyyy :3
“if you fly to close and then you turn too late, the night still confuses me,...”
“if I saved you from drowning, promise me you’ll never go away,promise me...”
i lose my grip i lose my focus.
i want to listen to tegan and sara till i don’t exist anymore. i might stay up all night and just listen to them. i feel so fucking shit. grrrrrrr.
“And there’s a lake, and at the bottom you’ll find all our friends,...”
“i am the cause to all your problems, shelter from cold, we are never alone....”
“you made me forget myself, i thought i was someone else, someone new.”
okay so.
i am cold and tired and a bit angry, i STUPIDLY spent too much moonlah on clothes with store cards and now i want to cry because i’m very scared about the repayments cause i REALLY can’t afford them. i also feel really sick i can’t stop fucking coughing and i’m shivering cause i’m so cold (although that could just be down to the bad weather.) i want to go for a fag...
“Once again, I wanted to kill something in myself, wanted to bleed it out until I...”
“It didn’t occur to me that there was something decidedly odd in finding a box of...”
“she said goodbye to the ground, and jumped.”
“they go from kindergarten to killing sprees, they go from heartache to inner...”
“i hear noises in the darkness.”
“spelled out your name and lists the reasons, pain of heart,
don’t call me...”
so, high on medication, the plan is to:
lose more weight!
sortt my fucking life out mattttte.
find a nice, stable person to have a nice, stable relationship with.
and buy more cats.
and possibly employ someone to document my cat’s every movement.
and buy more dresses.
and i have some particularr tattoo’s i wanna get that i’m going to be very happy about.
and find some way...
“i’m not afraid of happy endings i’m just afraid my life won’t...”
i can’t belive it. i can’t fucking belive it. i knew today was going to be a shit day but seriously now this? fuck my life.
“i tear my heart open, i sew myself shut, my weakness is that i care too much and...”
“i don’t wanna be, he wasn’t finding anybody when he was on a shelf,...”
